Addiction, Enjoy The Journey, Life, Poetry, Recovery, Rise, Uncategorized

A Mom’s Journey of Recovery

For the cause of “good” came destruction.

For the cause of “making things better” they became worse.

For the cause of right came chaos.

Within the chaos, I tried to fix.

What I tried to fix remained broken.

What I tried to control remained immature and fought me for freedom.

Then I became aware of my own insanity.

By admitting it I became sane.

By letting go came freedom.

By setting setting free came maturity.

By admitting wrong came humility.

By accepting humility I welcomed help from a Higher Power.

It gave me strength in my weakness.

It gave me wisdom in my ignorance.

It gave me love and compassion instead of judgement.

And it gave her wings.

And it gave her freedom to go on her own journey.

And permission for me to get out of the way and let it happen.

 

Wynema Clark – 2/20/2019 

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"It Is Finished", Breathe, Commentary, Cross, Enjoy The Journey, Floods of Rest, Gospel, Life, Love, Ministry, Poetry, Religion; spirituality, Religious

Floods Of Rest

An obsession with right and wrong had stolen my liberation most of my life. I wanted badly to get it right. It being my theology, my life, my character, my family, everything. But I got confusion and frustration and like parched earth on a hot Texas summer it starved my soul of the pure clean living water that was mine.

It was a drought of receiving and giving the love that so desperately wanted to flow. But slowly, the dam broke. Not like a thunderstorm, but like a still small voice saying, “It Is Finished” you can stop now and rest.

Let the water flow by letting go of right and resting now, because, I Am. I am your right, I am their right, I Am. And out of my belly flows rivers of living water. Floods of restful being, washing every part. I will never thirst again.

Wynema Clark 12/22/2018

Alone-Ness, Commentary, Cross, Enjoy The Journey, Insticts, Life

Alone-ness

It is in my alone-ness that God and I communicate the best. In the quiet of my evening, when my day has unfolded and my concerns or request are raw and laid bare. As I finish up my day, we talk all while I clean the kitchen or wash my face.

I also like to walk either alone or with my pups in tow. No music or podcast or sermons. Nothing to place my concentration on or distract me from where my thoughts are. Maybe family concerns or things happening with my friends and we talk about it. Even my own personal anxieties or feelings of inadequacy I notice in the quiet. Those I share with Him and He often reminds me of the truth or highlights a lie that I’ve allowed in.

In the quiet I can really focus on where my thoughts and feelings are settling. If I am emotional in certain thoughts and why that particular thought elicits such emotion, the Holy Spirit gently and quietly points out the truth and where it fits or doesn’t fit with who I am.

Sometimes my feelings are strictly based on lack of sleep or hormones. In these I am given grace. Those are physical and may not be based on a lie, but physiology. I remember the difference between eternal and temporary and I am thankful for the temporary and I allow myself to feel it and then let go.

Sometimes I even embrace the highs and lows for a time, to enjoy the range of emotions associated with being alive. It allows me a healthy, honest physiological experience in the moment.

I am thankful for a full range of emotions. I am thankful to my Father for being a woman.

Wynema I Clark

Commentary, Gospel, Life, Love, Ministry

The God Who Is Love

As a little girl I remember so well the desire to please my dad. I did everything I could to gain his attention and his trust. I craved that validation. Then in high school I did something I wasn’t supposed to do. He was so angry that he looked me in the eyes and told me that he was disappointed in me and could not trust me.  It was a crushing blow.  To lose something that I had worked so hard for and craved so much was devastating.

As a believers we sometimes view our relationship with our heavenly Father with this same kind of delicate frailty. We believe that those who pray the most and who stay the busiest “working” for the Lord have a better relationship with Him. He has to love them more.  So we strive and we press in and we strive some more and we press in some more until we are burned out, spent, and anxious because enough is never really enough.

Then when you come to the end of the striving and you stop trying to be so perfect and work so hard you are finally introduced to your real Dad.  Not the father of your particular religion, not the father of your interpretation of the scripture, but the God who is Love, that is your real Father. It is then, and only then, that you are able to relax because you realize that He isn’t waiting on you to get your work done.  He has been waiting on you to realize that He already did all the work so He could spend His time with you.  You see, it’s not about getting Him to love you.  He IS love.  Its really about you accepting that you are lovable because of Him.  And in knowing that love, you are fulfilled in life instead of anxious. Enjoying Him and He you.  That is relationship.  That is love.

Ephesians 3:14-21; I John 4:9-10, 19; Romans 8:38-39; John 15:13; Romans 5:8

"It Is Finished", Commentary, Ministry, Poetry

It Is Finished

On this day darkness met light
Sin met righteousness
Life met death
A reconciliation of all things and all people into One
Not a sin forgotten
not a nationality left out
For God so loved the whole world
For God’s plan included the whole world
And into His Son would be placed all sin
In Him would be the final seperation
In Him would be all law exacted
In Him would justice meet love
In Him would the blood make its final payment
Darkness fell and the earth shook
The wages of sin were deposited into the bank of eternity
Making way for the gift of God to be withdrawn
Unto all and upon all them that believe
Days later Light broke through
Righteousness came forth
and eternal Life conquered death
What was without was placed within
What is now within is being seen
Out of death came Life eternal
and it’s exceedingly, abundantly above anything we could ask or think.
Heaven on earth, Heaven in earth
It is finished!

Wynema Clark 4/3/2015

Commentary, Ministry, Religion; spirituality

Smell What The Lord’s Been Cookin

Have you ever tried to bake a cake with the wrong ingredients? It just never quite turns out. This example has been used by church leadership and ministries many times to evoke a need to re-evaluate what we are doing to see a desired end result in our lives. The other day I woke up thinking about this. As I lay in bed meditating on what that means from a new covenant paradigm I thought the most logical thing: If I am the cook then all this cake needs is Jesus to be perfectly perfect. Then the Holy Spirit stopped me and said why do you suppose that you are the cook in the equation? I had never thought that way before. I had always assumed that I had the major role in what goes in. But as I lay there in bed I realized that everything I need for life and Godliness has already been placed within me in Christ, so the ingredients are already there. Then as I rest in Him, He is cooking up His life and His nature through me that is as fragrant to a hurting world as baked cake is to a hungry nose. Neither the cook nor the ingredients are up to me the only thing I do is put myself in His hands and believe that He is cooking up more through my life than I could ever cook up on my own. I yield to His life within me, rest in what He has already done and then taste and see that the Lord is good.  And when I say good, I mean Jesus, He is the “good” that will be seen in me and He is the fragrance that will be smelled on me.  God really does have it in our lives.

2 Peter 1:3-8; Galatians 2:20; Philippians 1:21; Hebrews 4; Colossians 1:27; Romans 6:13; Psalm 34:8

Commentary

Jesus The Builder of God’s House

Do you realize that you are perfectly compatible to be the dwelling place of Christ on this earth?  Did you know that we are called the temple of the living God, as well as the temple of the Holy Ghost?

To be called a temple is a big deal.  Have you ever read the specifications for the tabernacle in the old covenant? I don’t recommend it unless you like lots and lots of details because God was amazingly detailed.  I mean he was pretty clear with Moses that every little stitch had to be perfect or He wouldn’t move in.  Amazingly Moses built everything to scale and God indeed moved in.  Of course that still meant that only the High Priest could talk with Him and that is another story for another day.

I think we have had that same kind of idea about God’s presence.  That we need to make everything ready for Him to come, like our heart, our attitude and we certainly can’t have any un-forgiveness, that’s a deal breaker for sure.  If you have all of these things just right and the mood is properly set you could get a visitation from God.  And some people go from conference to camp-meeting just to be present for one of these visitations.

News flash!!  In the new covenant, on this side of the cross you do not go to a location to meet with God.  In the new covenant, because of Christ and His finished work He made you the temple so that God could move into YOU.  You are His temple.  Where Moses was the builder in the first house, Jesus in the builder of God’s house today and you are that house!

Remember that I said, everything in the first tabernacle had to be perfect on every level and every detail or God would not move in.  Well, Jesus the builder of the last house got every detail right, He finished His job with perfection so that God could indeed move in.  You are that house he finished, every detail of your heart was made perfectly right.  All of your old stuff was moved out and all of God’s stuff was moved in when you believed.  There is no need for visitation because God moved in!

So the next time you are feeling less than right, remember that you are His workmanship, his craftsmanship, that the builder who is Jesus got all the points right, God inspected it and said well done good and faithful servant and then He moved in.  He got rid of all your stuff and brought all of His stuff therefore you must be A-OK!

Reference:  Exodus 25, I Cor. 6:16-20, I Cor. 3:16, Hebrews 3:4, Ps. 127:1, Gal. 2:20, Eph. 2:10

Commentary, Cross, Enjoy The Journey, Gospel, Life, Love, Ministry, Religion; spirituality, Uncategorized

We Are His House

My husband and I are blessed to own a great house in SA. We live in that house, pay for it and hire out repairs (we aren’t real good at that stuff) and care for the upkeep of it. If there is painting that needs to be done or a lawn that needs to be mowed Jeremy and I don’t blame the house, how silly would that be, we simply take care of it. We may rearrange things at times, remove walls or update the light fixtures. But that’s up to us not the house.

The verses below all say that you are God’s house. If you are God’s house what does that say about whose in charge of your care. You can rest in that! I just think about that and it gets my mojo goin!

Hebrews 3; 2 Corinthians 6;

1 Corinthians 6; Acts 7 & 17 1 Corinthians 3

Life, Love, Love Is Shown, Poetry

Where Love Is Shown

Love doesn’t highlight mistakes,

it redeemed them.

Love doesn’t point fingers at brokenness,

it embraced the broken.

Love doesn’t avoid the hurting,

It entered into it.

For God so loved the WORLD.

Not just our best and brightest

But our dirty and broken,

Our hidden and covered,

Our embarrassed, our shy

Our exposed and ashamed.

And leads us out into the wide open spaces of love and grace.

Where our eyes are opened

Where life is known

Where the lights comes on

Love is shown.

Cross, Gospel, Life, Love, Poetry, poetry; commentary, Religion; spirituality

Believing is Seeing

Formed in love

Created with breath

Believed into life

Redeemed out of death

Chosen and righteous

Whether I feel it or not

In my ups and downs

Your love hits the spot

I’m confident, strong and eternally blessed

Living by grace

In the midst of the mess

In weakness is strength

In sadness is peace

Enraptured by heaven

Your life is released

Flowing like rivers

Out of my being

Your life is mine

Believing is seeing

Wynema I Clark – 6-24-2018

Commentary, Insticts, Life, Love, Ministry, Religion; spirituality

Instincts

I just heard the most awful sound. The high pitched squeal of a squirrel caught in the mouth of my sweet, but all too quick Bandit. I was mortified I was petrified, while he was basking in the adrenaline that comes from instincts fulfilled.

Between my sweet neighbor and I, we managed to free the little critter from his clutches. I had to call the vet because the sound of that squirrel goes against my nature. It was awful! But it’s completely within the realms of Bandit’s instincts. What he did was natural and to him it was a victory.

Here is the lesson! My instinct, my God given spiritual responses are to love, to speak peace, to do the next right thing. In an environment that tells us that our flesh rules and our emotions tell the truth, my spirit cries out LOVE. When that instinct is fulfilled I’m like Bandit, playful, I have that adrenaline rush and I know I’m walking in the life of my creator! Even when this world is saying NO and when lies are knocking at the door I will follow my God given instinct and LOVE and then run in the yard like a banshee!

How about that! ♥️♥️🤗

Breathe, Enjoy The Journey, Life, Poetry

Breathe

I like bluebonnets in a Texas springtime,

And the landscape of a desert sky.

How about a canopy of trees along a winding road.

These are the things that make me take life slow

And breathe.

Breath the smell of honeysuckle

along a path I like to ride,

Or the smell of dinner cookin

through the back porch screen.

Life is sweet, Life is beautiful

So breathe.

Enjoy the endless journey of the ocean,

as your toes are buried deeply in the sand.

Let the music of your life have a

pleasant beat.

Cause life is sweet and it’s beautiful

So breathe.

Take in the moments as they come.

Don’t let your troubles hold you down.

Kiss your babies before they’re grown

And put that laptop down.

Cause time is passing,

And it’s beautiful

So breathe.

Wynema I Clark

3-12-2018

Enjoy The Journey, Life, Poetry, poetry; commentary, Religion; spirituality, Religious

Enjoy The Journey

Sometimes I like to take a walk

Call a good friend for a

light-hearted talk

Read a good adventure book

Or look around and take

A long hard look

At what is mine in the here and now

To see it in creation

and just say “wow”

I see it in the trees and the sky

and I fill it in the air that is crisp

In the cute, freckle face kid

whose hair is in a wisp

I see it in the stars, in the sun

and the rain

I see it in the comfort and

I feel it in the pain

I see it in my home when

the kids are running free

I see it in the mirror when

you’re looking back at me

I see it all around so I can

slow down my pace

And enjoy this journey now

because of your amazing grace!

Commentary, Cross, Gospel, Life, Love, Religion; spirituality, Religious

Just Live

We over theologize. It’s actually really simple. I think it is us who require proof, explanation and experience. We spend lots of time and money to understand. We travel, we read, we study. Maybe it’s an American thing and it’s a good thing, but it’s really not necessary.

What if you don’t have access to all the resources or education? What if you can’t read or maybe you live in a country without religious freedom?

I’ve seen people in dire straights, desperate for help, who simple tell God I can’t, I give it to you, and He takes it and loves them as they slowly begin to see the light at the end of the tunnel. People with no formal education and no means except for the simple ability to believe and they are transformed.

I’m convinced that it’s about relationship with a loving God who meets us where we are, we don’t have to find Him in an elaborate building or a well dressed speaker on a platform. Jesus made the way that simple. Do you believe?

We Americanized believers question our faith, our forgiveness, our walk, our church attendance, our clothing, when the heavenly standard was met in Christ, do you believe it? Then relax, have relationship and stop measuring God’s ability to love you by external measurements and open your eyes to see that He has been all along. Just live!