Commentary, Cross, Life, Religious, Short Story

Words, Honesty, Apology, Grace

Here’s a bit of brutal honesty. Try as I may, I seem to say something dumb at least once a week. It’s not intentional. It’s born of frustration or emotion and although it’s hard to admit, sometimes it’s just ignorance. Am I alone in this? I think not…I hope not.

The most challenging times are in the passenger seat while my daughter is driving, or in a department store trying to convince her that the lesser expensive pair of sweatpants are equally as good as the ridiculously expensive sweatpants. Truth be told, the expensive sweatpants are probably better, but heck, they are sweatpants and they are ridiculously expensive! So in the heat of the argument I say something that seems appropriate to me but painfully hurtful to her.

Unfortunately my brain doesn’t register, “inappropriate” until she hits back with a verbal upper cut. Suddenly we both find ourselves suffering from emotional internal bleeding. Then it all goes quiet and I know I’ve done it again. I know I’ve spoken out of the heat of the moment instead of the truth.

Once the arguing stops, I explain my point of view. We argue some more and finally I apologize…again. I say “again” because this ain’t my first rodeo. Once we stop and listen to each other, I mean really hear each other out, it ends up in forgiveness. But there is still a deep sense of shame and regret that I’m not aware enough to avoid these mis-steps.

Then I think about my Heavenly Father and the fact that His plan made allowance for my humanity. As if He knew somehow that in the eons of time Wynema and Hannah would need a lot of grace. That because of the blood of Jesus I am allowed to make mistakes and my daughter is allowed to desire the expensive sweatpants and I am allowed to tell her “no”. The emotions of the moment are still real, the words just as painful. But at least I know it’s going to be good, it’s all ok. I think as His grace is working in me, it can work through me toward Hannah or whomever happens to need it at the moment. And hopefully through Hannah toward me who need grace quit consistently. I’m growing, she’s growing, all God’s children should be growing in Grace.

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Commentary, Religious

Navigating Change

I am sitting at the airport in Dallas eating an “Art Vandelay” (yes I wrote that correctly) while waiting on my flight, which was supposed to leave at 12:25 and is now backed up till 3:40. Missed seeing my husband last night because his flight was also backed up due to bigger things going on in NYC than us, till there were no more flights to be had. After waking refreshed and ready for my trip this morning I receive a text from my ride letting me know he couldn’t take me to catch my flight due to work conflicts. Life is full of changes in our plans, and this is a completely normal part of life. I have realized in my forty-three years that trying to control thing is “futile.” So I will sit back and recapture a blog I lost after the last Apple update, which I’m sure was designed to make things easier…ūüėĀ

Unexpected change and disappointment happens every day. It’s life and if you cannot handle sudden change then you will be very stressed, anxious and “yes” even angry. We humans have a keen desire to control things; like our kids, our jobs, traffic, flights, other people, our destiny, I could go on and on.

Recently I have taken another look at the one who is really in control! I feel as if I’ve been re-introduced, although He has been right here all along. Now I know Him as Master of the Universe, and my loving Father who knows what I do not know and what I think I know, while He is teaching me gently and patiently. The one who has made provision way in advance for my life and has filled me up with Himself in Christ.

Because of this I am able to sit here at Dallas-Love Field and enjoy an “Art Vandelay” totally relaxed. I am able to learn that when you park in long term parking you should always get a ticket… ūüėŹ (another story for another time). I can navigate speed bumps in life and trust that my Heavenly Father has a better understanding of My life and my world than me. I can rest knowing that His grip on me and my life is bigger and more secure than I have on my life. Knowing this fact allows me to relax, release my grip and let Him have complete control. I trust Him, faith is easy when you know the Master of the Universe. God has answers before we ever have problems. He will fulfill his purpose. You might as well sit back and enjoy the ride.

Commentary, Short Story

Teenage Depression, Religion and How Grace Can Change Things”

Just had one of those moments with Hannah that are priceless. Moments of deep conversation. I’m so amazed at her emotional awareness and tender heart. We talked about what it’s like in that deep pit of anxiety and depression as a teenager when you are so caught up inside yourself that you are afraid to speak or participate or even be seen. But inside herself she became acutely aware of what was going on around her. She made mental notes to herself about what she would never do and what should never be done to another person. What hurts and what heals.
Now that she has become able to see the beauty of life again she said she understands that things, in that state, are not as they seem.

We both recall the night when in a deep pit of depression Hannah reached out to some “so called friends” and they relentlessly pushed her to the edge via text messaging, telling her that she was just an attention whore and she wasn’t depressed. Hannah did the right thing by reaching out for help but ignorance told her she was faking it, to pull herself up and stop demanding attention. And it went on and on until my son stepped in and took her phone.

We got much needed help and support from our church family but we also got a list of things we could have done to allow the devil in-road to our daughter bringing this depression. I was told to see if I had any unconfessed sins or un-renounced involvement that could have brought a curse into our lives. So in an exhausting attempt to free her from this we rebuked, renounced, covered and confessed whatever we thought would work. There would be relief for a time and then it would come back.

Finally after loud times of asking God why us, we tithe, we volunteer, we are the faithful ones, why us? I cried, yelled, and after doing all I could do, gave up. That’s when my attention was turned back to Jesus. That’s when I remembered the cross and the finished work and I was introduced to teachers like Dr. Farley and Creflo Dollar who showed me the truth of the New Covenant. Suddenly I was quiet long enough to hear the spirit say take her out of that school and check her hormones.
There wasn’t so much a miraculous deliverance needed as there were physical needs that had to be met. Now that those needs are being addressed she is my beautiful baby girl once again. Smart, quick witted and intuitive.

Watching a YouTube video of a bunch of middle school kids abuse a 20 year old autistic man brings her tears. She mentions it over and over because it bothers her so badly. She said mom, how could anyone at any age justify such an act in their mind? We talked about how grateful we are to the internet because now, that behavior can be exposed. Understanding that middle school ignorance and religious ignorance are both equally as damaging has helped us to grasp the need for a true revelation of grace in everyone’s life.

When young people are taught Grace and the power of God’s plan of redemption for ALL who believe there can be a revolution of love toward others that can change the world. When the church realizes what really happened at the cross they would see that Jesus bore any and every curse for us and put an end to the curse mentality. This would change our ideas that God owes us something for the good that we do and that it’s not my sin that brought some kind of Godly wrath on me.

This new covenant revolution is necessary to see our world change. It’s this new thing called “Love Thy Neighbor As Thyself”. Not because you’re taught to love as a rule but as a natural outgrowth of understanding. It’s the fruit from the tree of the life that is in our spirit, and it changes our lives in the most practical of ways.

Wynema Clark
September 11, 2014

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Great Big Buts

I always hear Christians talk about God’s grace and love for everyone but it seems to always be followed by a great big “but”. It’s like, God loves people “but” underneath it all they’re really thinking of the things you need to change. Like the way you dress and what you watch and how you talk and by the way you need to stop being so nice to those people who are clearly living against the truth, who by the way God loves too if they would only stop being how they are.
The name of that great big “but” is JUDGEMENT. John 12:31 says Jesus took our judgement. The truth is believers need to get rid of their “buts”. I do not like those “buts” and I cannot lie. God loves you period, end of story, nuff said.

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It’s Just Not that Difficult

I have always felt like a simple minded person surrounded by complex roadmaps and formulas. That I had to unlock some divine code in order to experience a kind of Heavenly ecstasy that I have always missed.
So I study and pray and search and hang on to every word by ministers and speakers and authors.
Are you ready for a huge revelation; it’s not difficult at all?
It ALWAYS comes back to the cross and what Jesus did there. Is His work enough, then just believe it? Whether its for my kids, my financial situation, my marriage, my health, whatever.
Now believe me it’s vital to study and learn to be good at those things like parenting etc.. but i could fail in those areas, lets just be honest. So my faith can’t be in the next book or study or in my ability follow directions. It has to be in Jesus and what he has already banked into my heavenly account through His blood. So read the books and go to the seminars and grow, grow, grow but rest in the simple truth that what Jesus did has to be the final answer.

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Moms and Worry

As a mom I have been prone to worry about my kids. Particularly when things are not what I thought they should be or don’t look like I want them to. After stepping away from the situation I ask myself exactly what good does worrying do? Does it improve the situation? The answer is “no”. In fact it actually creates more problem because of the affects it has on my physical body. It also has an adverse affect on my kids because when I freak out, they begin to lose their grip on the situation as well.
My faith is tested the most when situations arise concerning my kids. I think it’s the hardest test of our faith as women because we are so close to what is going on. We have so much invested emotionally in their well being. We have brought them up from the womb and they have depended on us for everything from food to clothing so we should be able to control there life forever right… haha. It makes it a little easier to understand why we, as mothers, have a hard time trusting God with these little or not so little people.
We have to realize that God formed them from the womb. He gave them each their individual gifts and lets face it, God is God.
Worry will not add a single day to their life ( Matt. 6:25-30) it will not fix whatever situation they are in but God knows what to do. Let’s let Him do it. Stop second guessing each decision we make, stop second guessing each decision they make. Let our yes be yes and our no be no (Matt. 5:37).
Today I give my kids to you, I relinquish control to the God who made the Heavens and the earth. To the God who calms the storm and raises the dead. To the God who sent His only child to redeem mine.

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Perspective

Each of us has our own world view, our own perspective. ¬†This perspective is a result of the way that we were raised, the world view of our parents,¬†events that have happened in our lives, and even pop culture. ¬†It is this perspective that largely filters the way that we hear and see ourselves and our circumstances. ¬†I think this is why you can have two hundred people sitting in a service with one speaker saying one thing and you will end up with at least a dozen different interpretations of what that speaker said. ¬†Now, that isn’t always a bad thing. ¬†I think God can use each different perspective to provide a fresh window in which to see the world, if we will listen to each other. ¬†So our own perspective or world view isn’t necessarily a bad thing unless it is contrary to the “truth”.

For example, when I was married I was a size 8. ¬†It didn’t take me long to kiss that size 8 goodbye and I remember the complete agony and embarrassment that I felt by growing to a size 12. ¬†I felt so ugly and fat. ¬†Years later after having two kids and getting up all the way to a size 16 I began the process of losing weight and when I reached a size 12 again I felt absolutely gorgeous, I mean I loved shopping and walked with my head up because I knew I was a knock out. ¬†Now, what was different between the earlier size 12 and the later size 12? ¬†The only difference was my “perspective”. ¬† I am happy to say that I am now back into a size 8 at age 42 but the point is that, depending on what angle you are looking from, you will decide if something is a good or a bad thing.

A lot of conflict happens in relationships because we don’t recognize each others different perspectives. ¬†A lot of the arguments that we have aren’t based on right and wrong they are simply based on each individuals perspective. ¬†The Bible gives us a great tool to use so that we can operate and function in this world with a better grasp on each other and what is going on by taking a Heavenly perspective.

Colossians 3:2 tells us to set our mind on things above, not on the things that are on the earth. ¬†In other words we can see things from a higher place. ¬†Do you remember going to the playground as a child and looking up at the slide? ¬†When I was little that slide looked huge and scary. ¬†But when I grew up and returned to that playground that same slide didn’t look near as scary, in fact it looked fun. ¬†That is what happens as you mature and begin to see things from a higher place.

I encourage each of us to recognize that we all have different perspectives, that we all come from a different world view but always strive toward a Heavenly view.  Philippians chapter 2 even goes so far as to tell us to let the same mind be in us that was in Christ Jesus.  What kind of perspective did he have?  He actually set aside his Heavenly perspective in order to be fully engulfed in ours and in doing that he brought us the opportunity to take on His mind and His way of seeing the world and people and circumstances.

What does that mean to you?

How are we to do that?

What will be the result if we do?

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